no alumunium for cookware
info for today : quoted from http://www.metrotvnews.com/read/news/2012/03/11/84603/Tips-Memasak-Sehat-di-Rumah/11
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Hindari menggunakan peralatan masak dari aluminium karena menyebabkan kadar tinggi aluminium dalam jaringan otak. Penderita Alzheimer memiliki kadar aluminium tinggi di jaringan otak. Peralatan masak yang paling aman adalah terbuat dari pyrex dan stainless steel
cave of the golden rose
today.. suddenly.. I remember an old movie.. 1991 production..
its title : cave of the golden rose .. can only remember it vaguely..
like it very much.. a story about princes and princesses.. warriors.. witches and warlocks.. medieval life.. my favorite kind of story..
was in my 3rd or 4th grade when it plays on tv in Indonesia
i dont know what makes me remember the movie.. suddenly.. out of the blue..
perhaps its the craving from inside for light happy ending stories..
*need break from real life 
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watched it on TVRI.. a national TV channel.. the only TV channel at time if i recall..
count your blessings
jamie dear jamie..
mommy just want to remind you that when you’re down..
use one happy thought, or one upcoming event, to get you excited..
just like now.. im thinking that soon.. i’ll be home to you..
all this tirednes.. gone..
that’s just one example..
I’ll give you other example.. but you’ll see me as a material based person
today is the 24 Jan 12, in our office, we have this salary notification, one day before the actual payment..
and heyyyyyyyy,, looking at that slip, gives a happy feeling..
yes i have to admit.. i love having money.. i love being able to buy stuff i want..
so.. ah..
yes.. what i’m trying to tell is that use any happy thought to get you back smiling.. lift that itching smiling muscle..
and you’re ready to face life challenge once more..
aiaaaa so excited.. im going home back to you now..
set your hype-ness
though i dont know whether the hypeness exist or not..
im going to use it anyway
i have to admit, sadly,, i’m a mood person,, hhh..
have tried to overcome it but failed.. over the years..
im just so volatile that i myself dont even know where my state of mood is going to be in a few hours
there are times that i am so tired of being myself..that i cried myself out loud..life was miserable..
there are times that i am filled with utmost joy that i can literally jumpin up and down by myself
but hey.. i survived.. i still alive.. i can feel differently..
theory.. they’re easy to say.. they always say.. happiness is from within..
you create your happiness.. let your mind control you..
i know that they’re correct…that those theories are true..
but i also know that is d*mn hard to do..
and now.. while i am still sane.. before i got drawn to my depressed, drowsy world of mine
i need to write this.. to try another way.. to be up all the time..instead of being down.. 
i am going to set my mood to a “very high” level on monday..
so whatever happens during the week.. it will only decrease my mood to “high” or “standard”
and it’s not going to be “low”, and certainly not “very low”, no it’s not!
mood swings
I have to admit I have a very volatile mood swings.. I dont know whether it is something I have to cure or overcome… by seeing a shrink or else.. but for now I’m satisfied enough thinking that I was born this way (pretty much just like what GaGa said,, haha)…
anywho, today my mood is peaking high.. I felt so excited in doing things, in making plans,, in doing those plans.. everything came to my mind.. wanna do this.. wanna do that.. wanna take yoga class, wanna learn to stitch, wanna start movin to inlaws, wanna start surveying schools for jamie, wanna read quran more often, wanna giveaway old belongings..wanna help my hub’s blog on motorbike,,ah so many stuff..
it’s so different with yesterday.. was on a lousy mood.. there’s nothing.. literally nothing can boost my mood..well there’s somethin, but it’s too private to be talked here..actually there’s a lot of things that can be done, lots of things can make life exciting.. but when I’m down on the mood.. it seem that everything is dull..
and it’s been happening for years.. i just cant help it..
and im depressed because i cant help it..
i tried to change but i cant 
but let me just enjoy today.. when my mood come,, even if it came only once in a year,, yaaaaayyyy,, let’s live just for todayyyyyyyyyy,, hahahahah!
again.. another incoherent posts
live in the now
I’m the kind of person who likes to drift away.. well, not that I like it, but it just happened..
more than often, I’m in the middle of something, but my mind is not there
I think.. one of the trick is to saying out loud in my mind, what activity I do at the moment.. think it will keep me focus and not distracted into other things..
I’ve been thinking.. the trick (I guess) is to say in your mind about what you’re
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Omg..I left it unfinished haha
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Point is..what you’re doing is what you’re thinking..hope you won’t lost track anymore
Renungan Indah
got this from http://nasiuduk.blogspot.com/2010/09/renungan-indah-ws-rendra.html
Renungan Indah – W.S. Rendra
Seringkali aku berkata, Ketika semua orang memuji milik-ku
Bahwa sesungguhnya ini hanyalah titipan
Bahwa mobilku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa rumahku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa hartaku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Bahwa putraku hanyalah titipan-Nya
Tetapi, mengapa aku tak pernah bertanya:
Mengapa Dia menitipkan padaku ???
Untuk apa Dia menitipkan ini padaku ???
Dan kalau bukan milikku, apa yang harus kulakukan untuk milik-Nya itu ???
Adakah aku memiliki hak atas sesuatu yang bukan milikku ?
Mengapa hatiku justru terasa berat, ketika titipan itu diminta kembali oleh-Nya ?
Ketika diminta kembali,
kusebut itu sebagai musibah,
kusebut itu sebagai ujian,
kusebut itu sebagai petaka,
kusebut itu sebagai panggilan apa saja
untuk melukiskan kalau itu adalah derita.
Ketika aku berdoa, kuminta titipan yang cocok dengan hawa nafsuku.
Aku ingin lebih banyak harta,
ingin lebih banyak mobil,
lebih banyak popularitas,
dan kutolak sakit,
kutolak kemiskinan,
seolah semua “derita” adalah hukum bagiku
seolah keadilan dan kasih-Nya harus berjalan seperti matematika:
Aku rajin beribadah, maka selayaknyalah derita menjauh dariku,
dan nikmat dunia kerap menghampiriku.
Kuperlakukan Dia seolah mitra dagang, dan bukan kekasih
Kuminta Dia membalas “perlakuan baikku”,
Dan menolak keputusan-Nya yang tak sesuai keinginanku
Gusti, Padahal tiap hari kuucapkan, hidup dan matiku hanya untuk beribadah.
“Ketika langit dan bumi bersatu, bencana dan keberuntungan sama saja”…
(Puisi terakhir Rendra yang dituliskannya di atas ranjang Rumah Sakit)
let your mind control you
jamie dear jamie,,
mommy misses you all the time..from the beginning that we met.. up until now.. miss you all the time..
but we can not let our feelings control everything.. it is there for a reason.. but if it trail you off from your track.. don’t let it be..
just remember mind over matter…. surrender to your logic… sounds weird but if you try it, you’ll stay focus..
and remember..your happiness is from within…don’t search for it…it will hide, rather embrace it..put a smile..and it’ll come to you..
one object,different angle
I always think about myself..
And a bit ignorant of what others think too..
In effect,I always think that I know what’s best for me and (including) my son
But reality does bite..
One example..
I know that my son never likes to b carried horizontally,he likes it to be vertical..
So I apply the knowledge..whenever he seems to be sleepy,I will gently hold him vertically and mum a sweet lullaby..slowly until he fell asleepwell that’s just logic right..gently slowly vertical..
And that is what I preach to my house assisstant and my mother in law..
Recently,I witnessed the contrary belief being practised..
My son is having trouble starting his sleep..I’ve tried every way I know..I’ve changed his clothes,gave him milk,clean the sheets,apply cajuput oil..all to make him comfortable to start his sleep n yes I did gently slowly vertical too..
None of them work..my MIL was around at that time..and she act as if she’s coming to the rescue..so okay,I hand her my son..”be my guest,u can try but it’s impossible for you to succeed..”I said silently ofcourse..
Then,she held my son HORIZONTALLY,and then SHAKE him,to left and right,in FAST pace.. I’m not sure you can imagine this..but believe me..it’s not gentle slowly and vertical at all..
I was going to stop her (with manner),when I saw my son closed his eyes and start to sleep..whoaaaaaa wth??!!
My MIL did come to the rescue..
Then she put jamie on the bed and he continue sleeping safe and sound (literally,coz he snores )
I can’t thank my MIL enough for that..I sometime use horizontal shake and fast…and it seldom failed.
This just one example..and I am sure there are plenty of stuff that if I humble enough to see with different perspective,I will able to live an easier life..
read my own blog
Haha
Seems so self centered but yes..I have to read my own blog more often..bcause it turns out that I’ve wrote some reminders here that I often forget..
Anyway haven’t posted much because I’ve been assigned to other kind of work..I’ve been busy doing that and I haven’t got the passion either..my son been sick..and my world has been tumbing down ever since.. *sorry for the hiperbolic statements*
Truth is..however hiperbolic it may seem..I feel that I am not good at everything..not a single thing..well I’ve been good at ignoring things,maintaining the-hell-I-care attitude..and when I finally also failed doing that..I can see how I’m falling apart..and I’m running out ways to solve my problems..it’s like I’m stuck,jammed..
I realized (again) that those wonderful quotes exist with purposes..aside to make you smile is to make you motivated and get you through the day..
Well I know this has been common knowledge..but when I’m in deep sh*t,it’s just so hard for me to remember this..
God is there,and I can imagine He hid a smile everytime He sees us get up after a fall..a proud smile I guess..
Point is..I’ve fallen (many times)..hard..but I don’t want to stay on the ground much longer..I want to get up and try again..!ha!that’s the spirit ona..
